Your walking down the street... Rage is building up inside of you... Your parents left you when you were a baby... Now your Uncle, who treated you like he was your father, just died from a house fire with white oozing cuts all over his body. All that was left was a black scary looking light-weighted oval stone, and a blue peaceful looking light-weighted oval stone. As the rage peaked you just let it out and ... BOOM!!! Blue light fluttered around you destroying everything in its path until it slowly died away.
That is not how you play an RPG! For gods sake... READ THE VERY BIG AND NICE STICKY SAYING HOW YOU SHOULD PLAY AN RPG BEFORE JOINING ONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!